Life doesn’t fall apart in a single moment—and it rarely comes back together easily. Everything I Never Wanted is a therapist’s memoir that moves through early trauma, growing up with deaf parents, a teenage eating disorder, years working in emergency services, motherhood across decades, the devastating loss of a beloved brother, and a breast cancer diagnosis. It is an exploration of what it means to live inside the trauma that reshapes the life you are living, and the wild path to recovery by means of a medically supervised psychedelic treatment, intense and committed therapy, and tenacious and gritty intention.
Each chapter unfolds around a defining hardship and the lesson forged within it— and the ways resilience is built not through dramatic transformation but through the quiet, daily decision to keep going. Told with insight, humour, and unflinching honesty, this memoir is also a love letter to the people who make survival worthwhile.
At its heart, this book is about staying rooted when the ground shifts, building resilience in seasons of uncertainty, and rising—not in spite of what we endure, but because of the strength and hope. It is for anyone who has survived what they never asked for and is still searching for meaning, steadiness, and moments of unexpected joy after profound loss.
Life doesn’t fall apart in a single moment—and it rarely comes back together easily. Everything I Never Wanted is a therapist’s memoir that moves through early trauma, growing up with deaf parents, a teenage eating disorder, years working in emergency services, motherhood across decades, the devastating loss of a beloved brother, and a breast cancer diagnosis. It is an exploration of what it means to live inside the trauma that reshapes the life you are living, and the wild path to recovery by means of a medically supervised psychedelic treatment, intense and committed therapy, and tenacious and gritty intention.
Each chapter unfolds around a defining hardship and the lesson forged within it— and the ways resilience is built not through dramatic transformation but through the quiet, daily decision to keep going. Told with insight, humour, and unflinching honesty, this memoir is also a love letter to the people who make survival worthwhile.
At its heart, this book is about staying rooted when the ground shifts, building resilience in seasons of uncertainty, and rising—not in spite of what we endure, but because of the strength and hope. It is for anyone who has survived what they never asked for and is still searching for meaning, steadiness, and moments of unexpected joy after profound loss.